my future spouse's future spouse.

To my future spouse: I pray you're all that God intends for you to be.

I used to be obsessed with (and still sort of am, hehe) www.tomyfuturespouse.com.
I seriously would read all of that day's posts before I would go to sleep at night.
I'm a romantic, okay? All girls are! It's our nature.

On September 29, I went to my youth service.. They talked about future spouses.
They gave us a blank piece of stationary, with the header,
"To my future spouse,"

My first thought was, "I cannot wait to fill this up."
I was so eager to write down everything that I hoped and prayed my husband would be.
Here I am, three months later.. and that stationary is still blank.

Because the more I got to thinking about it, the less I felt like I could write.
Sure, I have standards that I want my husband to meet, but wait a second..
what about me?

I spend so much time thinking about my future husband.
I think about how he will be the spiritual leader in our household,
how he will raise our children up in the way they should go.

I pray that he will be pure until our wedding night,
a snow-white lover,
saving love as it is meant to be- just for me :)

But as I was praying for him, I got to one specific point:
I prayed that wherever he is, he's out there praying for me too.
And that's when it hit me;

WHAT ABOUT ME?

My standards are high... for my husband.
My standards for myself should be even higher.

I want the type of man who wants THIS type of woman:

A snow-white bride, pure of every kind of love.
A Proverbs 31 woman.
A strong mother, helping our kids find their own relationship with our Creator.
A soft-spoken, out-spoken woman (and no, that isn't an oxymoron; it's possible!)
A kind, generous, loving, humanistic woman.
A comforter.
A soother, a listener.
A woman so completely lost in the Maker that there is no way her husband would make or break her-- Independently dependent on Jesus :)

These are the standards I want MY man to have for HIS woman!
I should be praying for myself, that I am everything on the above list, and more.
What I have to remember is that, as much as God wants me to have a pure soulmate,
He wants my soulmate to have a pure wife as well.
God loves my future spouse MORE THAN I EVER WILL.
He wants the very best for him! God doesn't want him to settle for anything less
than a Proverbs 31 woman.

Can I meet those standards?
It's about time I stop praying so much for that future spouse of mine,
and start praying for my future spouse's future spouse!

In pure and spotless love,
Rachel.