tis the season.

alone in this winter, clarity clouds my mind.
-mumford and sons.

everything in my life right now has to do with seasons. it recently just started really feeling like winter, and while its 20 degrees outside here, my mom is in cancun in the sun.

I cant help but notice the differences in our morale.

tiiiiiiiiime. seasons. growth. decay. cycles.

everything in life is a part of cycles. all these cycles (sleep cycles, bodily functions, work schedules, school days, etc) they all make up the huge cycle of life ("the circle of liiiife!" sorry, had to do it). its almost like I feel stuck in this always spinning world. jeeze, can't a girl get a break? time needs to go on vacation.

seasons. I'm in the senior year season of my life, by far the scariest yet (except for age 15, but I only thought my world was coming to an end... dramatic year). I just wish I could slow down, breathe, have time to take it all in. but time won't stop for me. time is rude. I wish I could throw myself on the floor, kicking and screaming, and absolutely refuse to keep up with the changing seasons, but obviously, that would be irrational.

tonight I opened my prayer/study journal and saw where I had written ecclesiastes 3 down to study later. I opened it up and was immediately reminded of what my mom has told me my whole life.

"there is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven."
this whole chapter is blowing my mind. God has it all planned out- why am I so stressed? there's a time for everything, and right now, its time for me to finish this high school chapter of my life. I'm growing up and in to bigger and better things!

favorite: "He has made everything beautiful in its time. he has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."

I'm blessed to be His child, his princess daughter. He has His eye on me! through all my seasons, He is holding my hand.

Psalm 31:14-16 "But I trust in You, oh Lord; I say, "You are my God." MY TIMES ARE IN YOUR HANDS. Let your face shine on your servant, save me in your unfailing love."

<3 Jesus loves me, this I know! For the Bible tells me so. little ones to Him belong; they are weak, but He is strong.